Reaching 2nd

God, it's only the 1st week of the semester and I can conclude it is dreadful! Well, maybe the fact that we are still adjusting ourselves, post-semester break, to the new semester but on god, I felt like I am pretty much drained for the whole semester.

There's a lot of stuff on my plate and I am not sure having two hands will keep them from falling off my plate; with assignments, reading tasks, upcoming events, self-study, competitions, etc. I'm secretly praying for this semester to end.

There's this one night I told everything about it to my friend here, and she felt the same. It's ironic to have such stressful life when I'm still young and all of this stressful stuff kept on piling up on my shoulders, I really hope I won't collapse at any time.

Things like these made me feel homesick. Even after spending half of my life staying in dorms, away from my family, this one is the worst. I miss my home, I miss my family, I miss the life where I don't have to think so much about life and have a few on my plate. Life is kind of scary. One day you're happy, going to theme parks with your friends, another day you curled up on your bed, crying your heart out to sleep.

This is not healthy.

Yes, I want a happy life where I go to work, spend my life taking care of my family, pay my bills and taxes, have my own bearded dragon, cook weekly, or take a vacation whenever I want to. And yes, I do realize I have to endure this painful and tiring journey to get those stuff I am dreaming about.

sigh, til next time.

love,
sams

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